The Biggest failure in my life

I waited a call from Japanese Embassy for two weeks where I applied the position as a staff there, I did my best at the interview and today's evening they called me, informed me that I wasn't good enough for the position.

I must realize it killed me so badly, I had a dream, a very big dream since I was young, and when I can't make my dreams real, it's a torture for me, I am so down and hate my life to the max now. I wanted to end it so soon.

I am so usefulness for myself and everybody surround me, I tried so many things and now I give up on my dreams, I throw everything to the garbage, it's all over! I am just a garbage.