WITHOUT YOU

[yun_miyake]

still confuse wether I make it chaptered or not LOL

WITHOUT YOU

“Otsukare sama deshita”!!

I’m so glad the shooting for today is over, my body shivering of the cold air in this January. I walk to my bag and take my private coat after handing the filming outfit to my manager; I wear the coat along with the gloves to prevent my body from the freezing winter wind. I check my phone and I can’t help my face from forming a smile, “Treat me like your co-star in the drama”.

I  send a short reply, “I’m tired”, opened my car’s door and come in, I want to go home immediately to see the face I  miss the most these days. Two days before were so bad, my  drama was aired, and the opening was the bed scene and I knew it will happened, my chubby leader rejected to talk to me for the whole day even just pick the phone or replies the messages i sent. I had to visit his apartment in the midnight just to make it clear and pursue him to be more mature, but still, it took long time for me to beg him until he gave me his smile.

Today he already promises me that he will cook some food for me and to eat our dinner together. I drive my car faster since I really miss him today, when I reach his apartment I get down from the car and knock his door, but there’s no one comes to open it for me. I try to open it and it was unlocked, I enter the room and seeing he sleeps so tight in his kotatsu. I sigh and wipe his hair gently, shake his shoulder slowly to wake him up.

“Mmmm….let me sleep”, he muttered, but when he sees my face his eyes wide open surprisingly.

“Jun, how long have you been here, I’m sorry, I’m…..”

“Shhhh”, I touch his lips with my hand to make him quite.

“Dinner”, that’s all I said and join him in the kotatsu.

“Everything were prepared”, he stands up to take the dinner from the kitchen, I follow him there to help, since he just woke up from his deep sleep his body is unbalance and drop the bowl until it breaks and the flakes spread on the floor.

“Sorry Jun”,  he squats and clean it.

“I should wake you up more Riida”, I take his hand to stop him cleaning the flakes. He sees my face with the sleepy face that I love the most; I pull him into my chest and hold him so tight.

“Do you still want me to treat you like my co-star? That was just acting Riida, should I do the same?”, I attempt him and ruffle his short brown hair.

“I want you do it for real”, I hear he mumbles from my chest and tighten his wrap to my back.

I kiss his forehead and then his nose, cheeks, and finally I land my lips on his smooth lips, he moves his hand to my neck and pull my head closer, our kiss become wilder and more desire.  I lift up his body like a bridal and put him on the tatami beside kotatsu, he wraps his hand to my neck and smile to me.

“You said you are tired”, he whispers.

“I change my mind”, then I  continue our pausing kiss, he holds me tighter and try to undress me.

I let him do and kiss him on his neck,  he moans quietly enjoying my touch so much, I think he misses it because I feel the same way, our activity is killing us recently and we don’t have much time together, I miss his whisper and moaning and his cute face every time I attempt him. I start to undress him, but suddenly my phone ring and I saw the screen, since it’s my manager so it must be so important.

“Matsumoto san I’m so sorry of sudden but can you go back to the filming location?”.

“What? What happened?”.

“I will explain the detail when you arrive, I am so so sorry”.

I end the call and turn my head to see my leader’s face turn frown so bad. I put on my jacket and coat, hold him into my embrace, I can’t do anything since it relates to work, even though he’s the one who I need the most tonight.

“Riida I’m so sorry”, I give him a little kiss on his cheek, he forces his face to make a bitter smile.

“It’s okay Jun, there’s time”.

I feel so much guilty because our plan was totally ruined, we didn’t have our dinner yet and the worse we are in the middle of our pleasure before the irritating call changes everything. The last thing I saw before I close his door is his disappointed face, resting his chin on kotatsu table and wave good bye to me. My heart become so much pain when I imagine he cleans up the kitchen from bowl flakes by himself at the moment.

“Sorry Satoshi”.