yun_miyake

Title : I'm sorry I love you (3/?)
Pairing : Yama/Juntoshi
Rating : M
Genre : Drama (I think)
Sum : "Sho kun what a sudden, aren't you busy?"
Disclaimer : They belong to each other not mine for sure.
English is not my native language, forgime me for the wrong grammars.

I’M SORRY I LOVE YOU PART 3

Ohno is about to sleep when his phone rang, he saw the board and Sho’s name appeared.

“Sho kun, what a sudden, aren’t you busy?”.

“Is that your first impression hearing my voice Satoshi, I thought you miss me?”.

“I do miss you Sho…..”

They hung up for seconds, Ohno heard Sho takes a deep breath.

“I’m sorry Satoshi I didn’t give you much attention recently, you know that I’m…”

“I don’t blame you”, Ohno can feel a weird pain in his chest, knowing that he lied to himself, he needs Sho so much.

“Do you still want to be with me?”.

Sho’s words reached Ohno’s ear but he can’t analyze it well.

“What did you say?”.

“I know you’re lonely without me because I feel the same way, but if you can’t handle it…..”.

“Of course I still want to be with you Sho, are you stupid?, why you asked me this stupid question?”.

Silent.

“I love you Satoshi and I don’t want you to suffer because of me, I want you to be happy”.

“I’m happy with you, that’s it”, Ohno can hear his own voice change to harsh without recognized it.

“If you like someone else…..”

“Sho kun, I’m so tired, I need to sleep now”, Ohno didn’t want to argue about it, once Sho called and he wanted to talk about this silly thing.

“Satoshi”

“Good night Sho”, Ohno ended the call, he threw his phone to the bed along with his body, what the hell he had said? Totally lie, he’s lonely, frustrated, and need someone to hold, but he can’t be selfish to ask Sho not to go, he will ruin Sho’s career by doing that.

He blinked to the darkness and sighed, the sleepy feeling has gone away, so he got up and want to drink beer, he stepped up to the kitchen but suddenly stopped when he felt something below his foot, a paper. He opened it and saw an email address written on it.

“Jun”, Ohno mumbled to himself, he can’t say whether he likes Jun or not but it’s a lie if he said he doesn’t want to meet that man again. He considers about sending Jun email but when he approaches his table, Sho’s smile in the picture seems like forbidding him to do that.

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“Ohno kun you look pale, are you sick?”, Aiba asked, he can see that Ohno’s face losing color.

“No Aiba chan, I’m just sleepless, don’t worry”, Ohno answered, he added a smile to ensure that he’s fine.

“You can take a rest, I’ll handle the shop today”, Aiba holds Ohno’s shoulder and guide him to the nearest chair.

“Don’t be stupid, I’m okay”, Ohno denied sitting and walked to the kitchen, Aiba chased for him.

“About yesterday, I didn’t meant something”, Aiba refers to the time when he stopped Jun teased Ohno.

“Forget it Aiba chan, he’s the one who caused the trouble”, Ohno said, he checked the milk and cheese on the cupboard, “I think we have to buy new cheese today, there’s only a little here”, he muttered.

“Shouldn’t we call for our supplier?”, Aiba suggested.

“It’s not the schedule yet, we must pay extra money to them, I will walk to supermarket to stretch my legs”, Ohno took his coat and walked to the door.

Aiba chased him, “But you’re not in good condition Ohno kun”.

“I can take care of myself Aiba chan, don’t worry”, Ohno walked out and wave his hand to Aiba.

“Itterashaaaaiii!!”, Ohno can heard Aiba’s voice, he turned his body and wave again.

The weather is so cold and windy; Ohno looked up to the sky, a little bit dark, perhaps the snow will fall, he thinks. He walked faster and inserted his hands to his pockets to avoid cold wind. He stopped when suddenly he feels dizzy, he shakes his head to cast it out but it won’t go, the great headache attacked him. He leaned to the nearest tree to prevent his body from falling and he remembered what Aiba had said to not go.

“Sorry Aiba chan”, Ohno muttered to himself and he decided to call Aiba for help, “SHIT!”, he cursed when he realize that he left the phone on his bed. “Nice”, he feels so stupid, can’t do anything but walking back to the shop. Ohno tried to step but his head rejected to find the balance, he keeps leaning to the tree and took a deep breath. He’s thinking about the taxi when a car stopped right in front of him.

“Ohno san”,

Ohno knew that voice so well, as if the savior has come to safe him.

“Matsumoto san”, he recognized the man but his sight was so blur.

Jun realized there’s something wrong with Ohno, he approaches the latter, “What happened? Are you sick?”, he touched Ohno’s forehead, “Your body is warm, what makes you out here in this condition?”, Jun took Ohno’s hand and pull him him closer. Ohno still dizzy, he let Jun pulled him and lean his head to Jun’s chest, and the taller feels something between glad and worry.

“Ohno san let me ride you home”, Jun put his hand to Ohno’s back awkwardly. Ohno just nodded.

“Can you still tell me the way to your place?”, Jun asked and help Ohno to put on the safety belt, he can smell Ohno’s scent and his heart just beat faster.

With eyes half closed he tried his best to guide Jun to his apartment and finally they are there. Jun helped Ohno to walk to his room, lucky that Ohno’s body is cute so he doesn’t face any difficulty to keep Ohno standing. Jun opened the door after Ohno gave him the key, they entered and Jun lay Ohno to the bed.

Jun grabbed his bag and took the medicine he always bring, “I hope this will help to reduce your headache”, he helped Ohno to get up a little from the pillow and make Ohno drink the medicine.

“Thank you Jun”, Ohno mumbles and laid back.

“I was lucky to find you out there, I was about going to your coffee shop”, Jun smiled.

Ohno suddenly remembered Aiba, he didn’t send any message to him, Aiba must be very worry at the moment, he searched below the blanket and found his phone, he saw that Sho had called him 10 times without being picked up. He ignored it and type short message to Aiba, explained that he his head became so dizzy and must go home.

While Ohno busy with his phone, Jun looked around and pay attention to Sho’s picture on the table beside Ohno’s bed.

“Is he your fiancé?”, Jun asked Ohno.

“Yes he is”, Ohno smiled bitterly, the one who supposed to be here, taking care of him while he’s sick should be Sho.

“He’s awesome”, Jun said, look to Ohno’s face to see his reaction.

“Thanks”, Ohno close his eyes, he feels better after drink the medicine which Jun gave him.

“Do you feel better now?”, Jun asked Ohno and sit on the bed, covering Ohno with blanket, “I guess I have to go”, Jun see his watch and stand up, but a hand suddenly wrapped his waist.

“Don’t go”, Ohno holds Jun’s waist and lean his head on the other’s stomach, “I need y..”, his voice almost can’t be heard when he said the last word. Jun frozen, he wants this man so bad, but seeing his happy face in the picture with his fiancé doubt him to steal Ohno from his lover, he sit down again and seeing Ohno’s face, wiping the chubby cheek with his finger, then he pulled Ohno closer and hold the smaller body so tight.

“I’m sorry”, Jun whispered, “I’m sorry for liking you this bad”, he continued.

“Jun”, Ohno wanted to yell at him, why he came late? After Ohno decided to live with another man and Jun came, he liked Jun too but he can’t, he will ruin Sho’s life if he do this, he just can’t hold it and he cried. He loves Sho but he likes Jun as well, why it happened now? He screamed in his mind.

Jun can feel Ohno’s breath becomes hard and he knows that Ohno cried because of him, he released Ohno from his embrace, seeing this cute face crying in front of him is really painful, then Jun pulled Ohno’s head and kissed Ohno’s lips. Ohno didn’t deny it, he’s hungry of touch, he closed his eyes and let Jun kissed him deeper, and when Jun ended it Ohno once again put his head to Jun’s wide chest and hope it will be forever.

Jun let Ohno rested on him, if only Ohno were his, he will never leave this cute man alone, facing the days by missing him, he just realize that Ohno had fallen asleep on his chest. Jun laid Ohno’s body very slowly to the bed, afraid that he will wake him up.

“You’re the cutest thing I’ve ever seen”, he whispered and watched Ohno’s sleeping face a few minutes before he saw Ohno’s silent phone vibrating above the table. Jun took it and saw “Sho chan calling” on the board; he pushed the received button and put the phone on his ear.

“Moshi moshi”